The ABCs of My Life: Reflection Day
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Saturday, December 1, 2007
「 bouncing away 10:02 PM 」
Spent a considerable amount of time today, with my Father in heaven. I must admit that I've not spoken to Him like I did today in a long while. Well, actually I was helping in an event at Gabriel's Church. But then it kinda ended early, so after like socialising for a while, I hid in a corner and just reflected on the past few months. The things which happened, the situations which have cropped up. Both the good and the bad.

I asked 1 question. "God, why is all these happening to me? One after another, some even overlapping each other. Why?!"

If you've been sticking around with me for the past few months, you would most probably know that I've hit quite a few really rough patches. And things have not been picking up since . In fact, my life is sad now.

I seem to have changed. My friends (quite a handful, mind you) say I'm not the usual me anymore. They say I don't talk with life now. My tone is monotonous and I mumble sometimes. Another friend said I'm not as responsible as how I used to be when I was the class monitress in Sec. sch.

I guess I'm just tired out. Being overstretched.
Melnana may be happy and the smiley person you see everyday, every week, every time you see me. But Melnana is actually broken, crying, troubled and tired inside. I just don't want others to worry about me or be affected my me. I want the people around me to be free from troubles and worries. I'd rather be the one who's troubled, worried and broken. At least I'm the only one who suffers. Nobody knows what I'm going through and nobody will know about it...


Ah Nehbounced.

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