The ABCs of My Life: May 2008
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Friday, May 30, 2008
「 bouncing away 9:32 PM 」
Someone whom I'm totally not close to sent me a sms.
Someone whom I never thought would say such things to me.

The sms goes -
Hi Melina, just felt led to send this to you. First, we need to thank God for the past 1 month, there are such PEACE in calmness in us. Thank God for coming to our rescue and answering our prayers. Remember that God is our ONLY answer.
(Then the person goes)
Thank you for your faithfulness, for your love, for your obedience, for being so responsible and most of all, thank you for praying. I'll keep you in my prayers. GBU abundantly Melina!


I think this sms serves as a reminder to me, that I've not been looking to Him in all that I do, especially in my FYP. Things may seem to be stagnant, but I should thank God for giving me peace and that He's always right here beside me, no matter what I'm going through.
But then, that person didn't have to add the bottom part. As in like I don't really know that person and I don't even talk much to this person. So why would she say such things about me? Then at YM, Adriel shared - do not mix humility with fear, my friends... and I began to realise that I wasn't being humble by not acknowledging things but it was the fear in me... oh wells...

Ah Nehbounced.

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Monday, May 26, 2008
「 bouncing away 10:27 PM 」
So I've finally told dad about it.
After like 6 weeks?
It really took me a lot of erm... courage to tell him.
Feel kinda relieved but there's still a weird feeling.

Dad,
thank you for not being angry;
thank you for your ears;
thank you for waiting so many weeks just because of this little thing;
thank you for your understanding;
thank you for letting me know that I'm not alone;
thank you the hug! - it really really meant a lot;
thank you for just being who you are;
thank you for your love;
thank you, thank you.

Ah Nehbounced.

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Sunday, May 25, 2008
「 bouncing away 11:09 PM 」
Yesterday and today.
Good and bad.
But it's more good.

Yesterday, mum wanted to check out the Henderson walk thingy.
So we went vivo, shopped first, then went to look for the thingy.
As we walked, bro and I were crapping.
Then it came to a point where we walked until we were super tired and the crappiness went further. Ha. Mum and dad actually crapped with us!
Walked for like 1 1/2 hours but we didn't like get there.
Finally, mum called her friend and we realised that it only starts at Safra Mount Faber!
So we were walking and walking and walking to nowhere all this while!
But nevermind, I think we all enjoyed the walk. =)

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Today.

Project Christwalk!
Sandy's last day of employment in YM. =(
Pastor Jeremy Seaward's Birthday (we flew him in to speak to us today).
His sermon - Which chair are you sitting in?
Went back to school for a little while.
Java-ed.
And dinner!
One of the most expensive and best dinner I've ever eaten!
4 tables, guess the cost.
4 digits! Put the decimal place yourself.

Those were the good.

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The bad.
Driving.
Always a spoiler.
Parking, the way I drive, my speed, my phone, my turns, the music, yada yada.
And why am I only allowed to drive on Saturdays?!
Oh wells. dont focus on the bad though.



Someone left me hanging.
I'm waiting.


Ah Nehbounced.

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Friday, May 23, 2008
「 bouncing away 1:21 AM 」
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Ah Nehbounced.

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Sunday, May 18, 2008
「 bouncing away 11:46 PM 」
You who look down on special kids.
I hate you!!
Special kids also have the right to go to church!
They also have the right to be brought out of the house!
You have absoutely no right to condemn them!
And you have no right to put their parents down too!
Now thanks to you, the kid's mum thinks she's a lousy mum.
It's not easy to bring up a kid and give unconditional love and attention 24/7 to someone who is INCAPABLE of taking care of himself!
It's ok if you dont wanna accept her apology but you really did not need to say what you said.
Just put yourself in the special kid's parents shoes.
What if you had a child like that? How will you feel? Do you think it'll be easy? What if someone said the exact same words you told the kid's mum?

Ah Nehbounced.

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Monday, May 12, 2008
「 bouncing away 11:33 PM 」
A few months back, my dear daddiee shared a song with me - Trust His Heart.
Today, this was my theme song...


All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blinded to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own.
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don't see Him
Remember you're never alone

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see his plan
When you can't trace his hand
Trust his heart, trust his heart.

He sees the master plan
And he holds our future in his hand
So don't live as those who have no hope
For our hope is found in him.
We see the present clearly
But he sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry he's weaving you and me
To someday be just like him.

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Went for our weekly meeting at I2R today.
Kinda irritated with the supervisor.
Each week, our total travelling journey to and fro the place adds up to a good 3 hours. But he only talks for like 20 minutes! Like what we did in that 1 week and what he expects from us the next. That's all. When we ask him questions, he will shrug the questions and say "you will have to work that out". He just refuses to lend us any help.


grrrrhhh... Java Java Java.
I will defeat you and and score for my project.

I've got about a year to think of the path I'll be taking for the rest of my life.
God I need/ want you to tell me your master plan.

Ah Nehbounced.

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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
「 bouncing away 11:42 PM 」
The last song played on my itunes - God is good.
Kinda 'spoke' to me.

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God is good, all the time
Through the darkest night, His light will shine
God is good, all the time.


As MP really gets going now, the stress level rises. There's so much to be done in such a short time. Lots of things to be learnt on our own. But thank God, my group members are very willing to share what they learnt individually.

Indeed, His light NEVER fails to shine on our darkest paths.
No matter what we're going through, God's always there, God always hears.


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I guess things are getting worst as the weeks pass.
Each time he compares and rants, I get more and more uncomfortable.
It get more uncomfortable when I have very, very different views from him.
It's not his fault I guess. But I think he is wrong too.
And I think he should put a full stop to the entire thingy.
Forgive and forget;
Don't judge;
Let go my friend, let go.
Sorry, I shouldn't be judging him too. I'm really sorry.
I just need to get this off my chest... cos it's been weeks.

Should I or should I not tell him?


Ah Nehbounced.

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Friday, May 2, 2008
「 bouncing away 12:41 AM 」
Chu ping-ed today, or rather yesterday.

Joseph, Cheryl, brudder and I were comparing the Christian funeral serivce with the Taoist service...

Taoist throw the paper money on the floor. A few pieces each time they go round the coffin. Chirstians don't. Imagine if those were our offering each sunday. Do we give our offering all at once or do we put a few coins in then run to the next row to put another few and the next and the next? (imagine we give coins for offering)

Taoist walk round the coffin until the 'soul' is satisfied. Christians only walk once (I think). This morning, we counted. They walked 4 times clockwise and then once anti-clockwise.

Taoist are sexist. The males are deemed as more important whereas females are less important. The males will line up in the front line and the females behind even though the males may be younger.In Christianity, we are all of equal status. It doesn't matter who goes first and who goes last.

Taoist have different 'banners' for the different generations to pay their final respect? Christians don't. We pay respect together.

Taoist competes to see who 'cries' the loudest to show how xiao shun they are. Christians, though they are sad, they rejoice because their loved ones are enjoying in heaven.

At a Christian funeral, it begins with worship, then a Pastor preaches for a while, maybe a eulogy is read and prays. At Taoist funeral, first they all bow to the deceased, then kneels, then take turns to pay respect, bows, the prist holds a lantern and says a few things (I don't know what), sprinkles water on the coffin and they bow again.

This wake, is the smallest and the cremation service, the fastest I've been to. And I thought they paid more attention to the rites than to the deceased. Between ah ma's funeral and ah zuo's funeral, I think ah ma's was more well organised. At least we managed to have our own family members carry the coffin with shirt and ties on and even had the chance to take a final family photo together - all her children, grandchildren and even great grandchildren.

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No offense to the comparison between the two. These are just my thoughts.

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At my wake, I actually want 'Come On and Celebrate' and 'Celebrate Jesus Celebrate' to be sung.



Ah Nehbounced.

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