Monday, December 31, 2007
Today marks the last day of 2007.
In just a few hours, it will be 2008.
Gonna go for watchnight service in about an hour.
How has 2007 been for you?
Have you set your new year's resolutions for 2008?
2007...
Wasn't smooth sailing at all.
Had loads of ups and downs.
School was bad.
But thankfully, I've managed to sail by smoothly.
'Ren' a new dad.
2008...
Set at least 2 resolutions (till now).
Hopefully this next year will be smoother.
Want school to be better, seriously.
Wanna find back my fire and serve more.
Fire!
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Blessed Christmas peeps!
It's Christmas but it doesn't feel like Christmas.
I really really miss Thailand now.
For the last few years, I've been celebrating Christmas in Thailand. And it feels weird to celebrate it back here in Singapore.
Indeed, Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart!
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, December 23, 2007
Which kind of candle are you?
- Unlit - has no light, no destiny. No purpose and is clueless about everything. This candle does not receive the light of the world.
- Strong flame/ strong light - has light and has the chance to share the light with others. Has the light of Christ and will touch others' lives.
- Flickering light - we usually have a cup to shield the flame from putting out. This cup will protect the flame. Allow God to cup our flame, protect us from the wind or other elements that will cause our flame to be put out.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Thursday, December 20, 2007
I've officially moved house!
My Room! (Don't mind the mess)
argh... it's been 2 days since you told me about the wrong thing you said. But I STILL don't know what's that wrong thing. Please tell me what it is leh!!! Stop ze-muoing me like this!! Only one person will know what I'm talking about.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, December 16, 2007
Went for camp last night and crashed there till they broke camp today.
I'm glad i went for camp, but at the same time, I kinda blame myself for going.
ok, this is going to be quite a long post...
First, let's me share the why I was glad I went for camp.
Rev Alvin shared something this morning which kinda lifted me. :D
Fire - Place
When you put in a piece of wood at an angle from the top, the flames will rise up to reach the wood, to continue to burn.
The same thing, God puts you through trials and tests you from different angles. You, or rather we have to rise up to the challange and face it bravely. If we avoid it, then we'll not be able to move on, and the fire will not burn.
Second, the fire place cannot burn with just 1 piece of wood alone. It needs a bunch of wood to initiate the the fire and even more wood, varing in size, to keep the fire burning.
In the same way, we need to find friends to keep our flame burning. If we stand by ourselves, our flame will die out in no time. But if we have friends to keep us going, the fire in us will continue to glow and grow, maybe even brighter and higher.
Lastly, a fire needs air to continue burning. Now, read this. We need the BREADTH of GOD to keep our fire going! Without God's breadth, we will not have fire and even if we have a fire, the fire will die down very quickly.
That's just so amazing!
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On the other hand, I was rather upset when youths went out to share their testimonies about camp and stuff. I know I shouldn't judge them and I don't have the right to criticise them. But I'm having my doubts about them. How much of what they shared is real??!! Are they just trying to seek attention or what? I don't know. I just broke down when the sharing got a bit out of hand (to me). My heart breaks to see YM going in this direction now. Not that YM is headed in the wrong direction but like I don't know. I don't know how to say...
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Thursday, December 13, 2007
grrrrr!!!
I gave the examiner a good 6 marks for today's paper.
6 marks may seem nothing but 6 marks mean a lot when the paper's over 40.
THE PAPER'S OVER FOURTY!!
Hate myself.
Why did God give me eyes?
So that I'll be able to see rite?
Where were my eyes man?!
I feel so dumb.
So stupid.
Please God, grant my paper favour in the eyes of the marker so that I'll at least pass the paper. I really need that pass. Otherwise, I'll be headed for the supp paper at the end of the sem. I don't want that! Please God. Please let me pass. Thank you.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
YMers will be at Sports School for 4 days in just a few more hours. While they have fun and hopefully be refreshed, I am studying for my term test. =( Tell me how sad life can be. Not being able to go for camp because of school is bad enough. What more not being able to go because of EXAMS!! arghhhh!!
I'm halfway through my exams at this point.
2 papers are over and 2 more left.
Bioinformatics today...
It's the first time I couldn't finish a paper!!!
geee...
There's just too much to write in 1 hour!!
And it's not just me.
Many or in fact, most of us couldn't finish the paper!!!
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Well, things hasn't been going on really well.
If a friend calls you to share her burdens and joy, you're a true friend.
But...
If a friend call you to pester you for something you dont want, what do you call that?
The actions of this friend...
Has affected me much and is affecting me really badly.
You know, we used to be close, but then again. I guess you have yourself to blame for not wanting to do your part in projects. So, you can't blame us if we don't wanna group with you for the FINAL YEAR project next year. It's FINAL YEAR project my friend. It's not just any other project where we can help you. FINAL YEAR project my friend, every member has to do their part. Based on our past experiences with you, you have never done your part and even if you do, you only do the least. So tell me, who's to blame now that no one wants you in the group and you have to go round 'begging' people? We really wanna help you but you've gotta help yourself.
1st paper today.
MCT.
5 MCQs.
3 short answer questions.
It was ok.
Bioinformatics tomorrow.
Lots of memory work.
Only the first half of the book's in my brain.
The other half can't be squeezed in.
I MISS prayer meeting... =(
Just 1 more week!! =)
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Saturday, December 8, 2007
Today. I DROVE my dad's car! XD
His car is looonnnnnggg. But the drives were fun!
Wanna drive more. More.
Oh yes.
I got my new phone today! W910i!! :D
Do people really know what they are talking about?
Do they realise what they blabber about?
Do they think before they blabber?
Just speak the truth, will you?
Don't say you did when you did not.
Stop seeking attention.
Gossips make people dislike their friends.
I thought you were mature for your age.
But now, i think you're just a bitch.
(and I'm not the only one who thinks like this)
Sometimes, I wonder if you're just putting up a show in front of me.
I really question your ACTIONS now.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007
See the picture below?
The triangle sign/ probation plate!
Went for the driving test today.
Was really nervous at first but I guess the warm up practice really helped me.
Actually, I kinda cheated.
Was assigned test route 6, which was one of the toughest.
But then...
The tester asked if I was scared to take that route.
I replied "erm... a bit."
Tester: "then I bring you to a mixture of all the test routes." (Even more scared at this point)
Thankfully, the tester didn't mean what he said.
He just asked me to drive 1 round near the driving school!
So my test ended in 10 mins when it was supposed to be like half an hour!
Had 0 demerit points for the circuit and 8 on the road. So, total demerit points = 8 (which is a miracle).
I had a score of 18 demerit points when 1 instructor 'graded' me.
Thank God for a nice tester! XD
Thank God for blessing me! =)
Yay! :D
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Saturday, December 1, 2007
Spent a considerable amount of time today, with my Father in heaven. I must admit that I've not spoken to Him like I did today in a long while. Well, actually I was helping in an event at Gabriel's Church. But then it kinda ended early, so after like socialising for a while, I hid in a corner and just reflected on the past few months. The things which happened, the situations which have cropped up. Both the good and the bad.
I asked 1 question. "God, why is all these happening to me? One after another, some even overlapping each other. Why?!"
If you've been sticking around with me for the past few months, you would most probably know that I've hit quite a few really rough patches. And things have not been picking up since . In fact, my life is sad now.
I seem to have changed. My friends (quite a handful, mind you) say I'm not the usual me anymore. They say I don't talk with life now. My tone is monotonous and I mumble sometimes. Another friend said I'm not as responsible as how I used to be when I was the class monitress in Sec. sch.
I guess I'm just tired out. Being overstretched.
Melnana may be happy and the smiley person you see everyday, every week, every time you see me. But Melnana is actually broken, crying, troubled and tired inside. I just don't want others to worry about me or be affected my me. I want the people around me to be free from troubles and worries. I'd rather be the one who's troubled, worried and broken. At least I'm the only one who suffers. Nobody knows what I'm going through and nobody will know about it...
Ah Neh
bounced.
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