Saturday, September 29, 2007
Spent almost half a day at PLMGSS' funfair today. Soooo super crowded. Stalls set up - Games, food, drinks and gifts.
I never thought girls school, especially mission girls school would be scolded by their DM. I'd always thought they were girls who knew how to behave and conduct themselves well. I was surprised.
Oh! I'm very amazed with one sec one class. They were able to raise some $4700++ during the funfair, just selling DRINKS! wow. Even the haunted house we had back in BV couldn't raise that amount of money.
The thingy ended at 5pm but waited a good 2 hours for some girls so that we could have dinner together. Kena swaned by them like anything. Then in the bus, I showed them the ring and chain trick and they were so amazed. Like never see magic trick before.
This is Rhino Tay, aka Adelia Tay.
Took 22 home with her. From Ang Mo Kio interchange all the way to Tampines interchange! I didn't even know 22 goes to Tampines interchange until I sent her to the queue.
Oh ya! Spent the second half of yesterday labelling the office shelves (and I'm still not done!). It's so fun to label the stuffs there. example 1: vacuum cleaner - "The Greatest Sucker" with a comic at the bottom. example 2: student folders - Please take me first! I need to go....... PEEE..... haha...
Labelling is killing my brain cells! But I'm lovin' it! hahas. I rather have my brain cells killed for this than for studying subjects I won't be applying next time. More labelling on monday!!!
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Friday, September 28, 2007
The Nepal trip is officially cancelled.
I'm utterly disappointed while my mum is overly happy.
This week has been bad.
Tuesday - call from Andrea De Winne. Conveyed Rev Melvin's order of no Nepal trips.
Wednesday - supp paper. 2 hour paper, left in 1 hr. Good or bad, I don't know.
Mum: "To tell you truthfully, I've been praying against your trip this time."
Thursday - Rev Melvin asked us to reconsider the trip. Fasted, prayed.
Mum: "Why are you fasting? What for? There is no need to fast." Annoyed and disturbed by what she said.
I don't know what's up with mum and my trip this time but I'm really disturbed with the conversation I've had about the trip with her the entire week.
Friday - trip's officially cancelled as we could not secure tickets before 5pm (the time we asked God for an indication on whether to go on the trip or not).
At 713pm, got a call from Er Jie. Said she had a dream and the dream goes...
I went overseas for some church activity (she does not know I'd be going on a mission trip). Things were not going well, right from the start. The team was held at customs when we reached the airport and were questioned for a few hours. After a while, everyone was released except me. Cleared the air and I was let go. Things were not smooth. Tension and fights began to rise and the team was caught in it. 2 of us were in some danger and 1 of us did make it back...
Yea, so... Shared this with a few people and one thing they said that was similar.
"It's a spiritual attack. Keep praying."
ARGH!!!! SUPP PAPER RESULTS OUT ON THURS!!!! GOD BLESS ME.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007
My spiritual hasn't been smooth sailing. It has hit a few really rough patches. The toughest of which is the one that's happening now.
I'm supposed to leave for Nepal, Kathamandu, this Sunday for missions. However, things hasn't been going very well. The mother isn't very happy about this trip. She says she feels we are very disorganised. Nothing's organised or finalised in a mission trip. That's what a MISSION TRIP is all about. She just told me today that she has been praying against this trip of mine!
Church had a ministries meeting today and Rev Melvin Huang said that there will NOT be any mission trips to Nepal until the election is over.
What does this mean? Is it really God's will that we will not be going on this trip anymore? Moreover, the tickets from Singapore to Bangkok has not yet been confirmed. What is God's plan for us? I'm confused, I'm scattered. As much as I wanna go for this trip, I also really want this trip to be a part of God's plan. I mean, if it is His will and plan that we don't go for this trip, then I'll just havta accept that decision.
Really depending on God's intervention now. Pray, pray and pray!!
My spiritual life hasn't been smooth sailing. I've been trying very hard to find the passion I've lost some 1 year ago but to no avail. People say camps are great refreshers for your christian life. I have not been to a youth camp for 2 years now. This year will be my third. If I don't go, does it mean I'll never be able to find my passion again?
Do we need camps to be refreshed? Are camps the only period when we can get "high"? Yes, camps may play a major role in this area but c'mon. We don't need camps to be refreshed. All we need is a true heart that is seeking wholeheartedly.
My spiritual life hasn't been smooth sailing. I know I've sinned time and time again. I'm not fit to be called a child of God. But by God's grace and mercy, I've been forgiven and cleansed. Lying is one major sin that I'm trying to curb. Trust me, I'm doing my best to try to stop lying.
My spiritual life hasn't been smooth sailing. The mother gets irritated and annoyed with me over little issues. She says "you never tell me anything but you always say you told me you told me". With little or no family support, how am I to grow spiritually?
My Spiritual Life HASN'T been smooth sailing.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Yesterday & Today. Porned work.
Why?
Yesterday was because got personal issue to settle.
Today is because of the PAPER i have tomorrow. So I'm on "study leave".
I felt so dumb yesterday. Went to driving school at 0830. Thought I had driving lesson. But when I reached there, I couldn't find my name to which car I'm allocated to. Asked the lady at the counter, then realised that I got the timing mixed up. My lesson was at 1625! How dumb can I get.
Driving yesterday was damn shiok. A young instructor took me and drove relatively fast. Faster than other lessons. I've found another nice instructor.
Had driving today also. Tried to go fast during the lesson today and got told-off. haha... different instructors and their different teaching styles. Oh wells... But I still love driving!
I shall not say it's my death day tmr.
I shall be positive and confident.
I'll try.
Tomorrow's the day I'll be retaking the paper.
Hopefully, I'll make it through and I don't have to retake the subject next year.
People, please pray for me.
I need all the prayers I can get.
Thank you.
okay. I'm late for my date already.
Date with my books.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
Rev Alvin shared the word today. Well, he didn't really preach, but he showed a really good video. I'd always loved Rev Alvin's messages.
The video is about this guy called Nick Vujicic. He has neither arms nor limbs. He's testimony is powerful. So powerful I tell you.
One phrase struck me - 'Your computer has a backup, doesn't it? Now, who's the backup in/of your life?'
I've been released. Well, not fully released but half released. But I'm still searching, high and low, deep and wide for that lost love.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Saturday, September 22, 2007
Met up with my beloved clique today - Gwen and her dear dear, Wenyi and her piggy, Jian Wei & his not present gf & me, myself & I. All got partners already. I'm the only one left.
Swan-ed JW like nobody's business. He's hair is like a dog, with a mop on the head. goodness. Damn ugly. But we had good fun though. We should meet up more often! Laugh our heads off, catch up with each other, updates here and there.
Woke up at 1143am
Breakfast
Shower
Church - prayer for Nepal trippers
Hans
PS
Bugis
Dinner at Sakae with the clique.
Time is 1:06AM now.
Gotta wake up at 7AM later.
Gonna go "New ZZZland" soon.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Work today was kinda slack.
First, sorted out the primary school folders - repacked them into bunches of 50s. We had like 3 whole shelves of the folders. That's like a total of 7000 folders!
Then played with my new toy today. The SUCKER, aka vacuum cleaner. lol.
Sucked the entire office today. Here's the farny part -
Melnana: Mel, can I suck your area please.
Melvin: You wanna WHAT?!
Melnana: I wanna suck your area lah.
Melvin: Wa lau. I don't believe you said that lah.
Stephen: Don't be so chor lor lah.
Melvin: I'm disgusted by what you just said. It's disgusting man.
XD.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Traditional/ Typical Prayer Meeting:
1) Worship - sing a few songs with just a guitar/ keyboard
2) Sharing - Whoever wants to share or feels led to share
3) Break into small groups to pray
4) Gather back for closing prayer
5) 1 song worship
- End -
Went for a CHINESE Prayer Meeting today at Renewal Christian Centre. Stephen finally managed to get me to go after 2 weeks of persuasion.
I HAVE NO REGRETS ATTENDING THE PRAYER MEETING TODAY!
Their prayer meeting:
1) Worship - Full band playing
2) Sharing
3) FULL SERMON PREACHING
4) Pray
5) Song
5) Pray
6) Song
7) Pray
8) Worship
9) Pastor prays - closes the meeting
- End -
Notice the difference? Their prayer meeting is VERY VERY DIFFERENT.
Many of us think that prayer meeting is the least important. But in actual fact, prayer meetings are the most important! The meetings should not be compromised in any way and we should treat each meeting as important as a service. Honestly, which prayer meeting has a full sermon?! This prayer meeting starts "high" and ends "high". This should be the case for every prayer meeting. The meeting shouldn't be left drifting and people should want to go for it every session. That's what's happening in this church.
Guess what. The attendence for this church's prayer meeting counts in HUNDREDS! Today's attendence was 200, people ranging from 10 all the way till 74! (they usually have about 300)How many people attends your church's prayer meetings?
I promise to try to attend this prayer meeting weekly.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
The week was hmm.. ok. Except for Wednesday. Got back my results.
My mood was damn bad that day lah. Was in office when I received the sms. Ran out of the office with a loud SHIT! Then like Ian, Stephen, Melvin, PK, Grabiel and Kai Lun was around. They were all stunned lah (I'm not usually like that in office). Hid at the stairs for quite some time, pondering over my results. The freaking F. Blamed myself, yada yada. Cried. Thank God Stephen 'found' me. I was quite suprised me found me lah. Didn't expect anyone to go look for me. He gave me advice, talked me out, encouraged me. hmm... wouldn't have felt so much better if not for him. Thanks goddaddy!
Then on Thursday, went for some mass erm... counselling thingy? It was in mandrin lah! goodness. Tried very hard to focus and understand what they were trying to say. Amazingly, I managed to grasp about 80% of the entire thingy. =)
Saturday was the most classic one. Slept shiok shiok until 1214!! Haven't sleep till so late in a loooonnngggg while. It was nice to be able to catch up on sleep. Went to help out at Gabriel's church - Renewal Centre Church. Roped in as a game helpers, 6 of us had a session for about 30 china men. Though the games were simple, they really enjoyed it. It's heart warming to see these chinese MEN praising God with their hands lifted! It was a new experience for me, singing CHINESE praise songs. But it wasn't that bad after all.
Then we went Gelang to eat durians. wah... tell you arh. Paid $140 for 3 1/2 kg of durians man! Damn expensive! kena cheated! haha.. feel so stupid. Reached home at about 1230.
when will he leave?
it's been so long.
i'm still waiting for that day.
they day when he leaves.
i believe, when he leaves, we'll all be happier.
so please,
please leave soon.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
The bad news - Results were released today (it was supposed to be tomorrow).
How did I do? Not very good. 7 Subjects, 6Bs and 1F. Shit that F. Gotta take supp paper for that sub. Hopefully I'll pass. Really really need that pass very badly. Gonna study hard for it.
Now, the good news -
See this slip? See the passed and the test type? Yes! I've passed my FTT. 5th December is my practical exam! Can't wait for that day. But scared also. Had driving today. The instructor was super quiet lah. But then at the end of the lesson, he said "you're driving's not bad".
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Monday, September 10, 2007
I was in office for only 4 hours today. Spent the rest of the day in Mayflower Secondary School. Was only supposed to be there for erm... 2 hours? But we got so engrossed in interpreting the graphs that we stayed on till about 330 before proceeding to have lunch.
Sat in goddaddy's car to the school, to lunch and back to office. His NEW car is damn solid! He has a DVD player, including SURROUND SOUND SYSTEM IN HIS CAR!! warrow. Watched a few demo movies in the car, listened to some songs... wa... I wanna watch movies in his car man!
Besides all the car craze thingy, we had a nice talk. He shared a lot of stuff with me. I never expected him to share this kinda stuff with me. Never. Everyone goes through different stages in our life and the stage he and I are through is very rough. Somehow, though we may be ages apart, I feel that we have so many things which are similar. I share his views, he shares my views. ha...
Oh wells... I just hope he's ok. Never seen him so down before. =(
Final Theory Test tomorrow! And it's the real thing this time! Really hope I pass. okok. Go study for it now! Pray I pass ya...
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, September 9, 2007
Hmm... what makes the apple so popular and hot? Why does everyone wanna own 1? Is this apple really that healthy?
Happy is me today. :)
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Saturday, September 8, 2007
The ra-ra gang.
My name err... tape?!
The NA family! :)
Erm... family portrait?
These photos were INSPIRED by Delphina. Tell you arh. She's an 'I' lah. If you know DISC.
The mentoring day for the JYPS kids went well. Though there were many stuff which were really last minute. Thank God for watching over us, the entire program, and that the kids enjoyed themselves.
But after this thingy, I have set my heart on not getting involved in any of these again. It's not worth waiting for the stupid director at every appointment. Even when you have arranged an appointment with him before hand, he will still change the appointment at the very last minute! Make you wait some 1 hour at his office, then ask his stuff to come out and tell us he can't meet us today. Like wth lor... hahahs... But this was a good experienced though.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Thursday, September 6, 2007
Work has been nothing but fun. Hidding in my little corner, without a table and a chair (i requested not having it). Shall take some pictures and show you my little corner in office the nex post!
School and work. Which do i prefer?
Definately work!
People in office are all fellow believers! They encourage me when I'm down, gives me advise and crab around with me. What's more, they stretch my potential so that I can shine!
At work, we have the freedom to talk about many things. From random stuff to serious talk.
One thing I love about working - going to schools to facilitate workshops. These workshops we conduct are not the same as the others (I can safely say this). The feedback we get both from students and teachers, they are most of the time, if not, all the time, positive. Many a times, students even write in the evaluation forms that they want to attend more of our workshops and even recommend our workshops to their other levels!
I take pride in my work. XD
Today's Thursday. That's excatly 1 more week till the release of my results! I scared. Really scared. What can I do? goddaddy has been telling me I'll be ok. Will I really be ok?
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007
I'm fixed on mending the big hole in my heart. This cup has to be refilled again. Buy a bigger and fatter candle, so that the flame will not burn off fast. Light up my fire again, please.
Thank you goddaddy, for the 45 minutes of talk we had! =) Thanks for the advise and for the listening ear. Thanks for the encouragment and the assurance. Thank you also for trying to bring me back to the right path, pray for me. Please don't be worried about me. I'll bring myself back.
I didn't know you'd be able to 'sense' that I'm troubled - about the sense to ask me to go for your chinese prayer meeting and chinese inhealing session. It's been just 2 days since I returned to office and you have already noticed the troubled me. I thought I was relatively good at hiding my feelings and expressions. But you are better, and observant. Really, thanks so much goddaddy! XD
I'm so blessed to have you as my goddaddy! Really. Sometimes, I feel I'm closer to you than to my parents. I share more of my feelings to you than to them. Oh wells...
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Monday, September 3, 2007
I'm back to work! yay!
Anyway, I borrowed Facing the Giants' vcd from office. Saw it on the "library's" shelf. It's a very good show. It's worth watching. I learnt many lessons from that 120mins show.
A few lessons -
- You may not accept things the way they are, but you just gotta follow Jesus Christ with your heart!
- Give everything your best shot, dont quit on myself, keep striving.
- Let go and let God!
- Serve God, not men!
- Surrender everything to his control
- If you think God can do it, He is able!
These 6 are not the only lessons that I've learnt from the show. You know, this show, is lighting the fire in me again! yessah! More fire, more power, more love.
Gonna let everything go and let God work in me. Surrender is what I've gotta do!
I really encourage you to watch this show peeps.
I cried. I realised my wrong doings. I found my lost passion. Tonight's gonna be a reflection night I guess.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Sunday, September 2, 2007
Our group felt little today.
Only 4 of us turned up initially - David, Cel, Kenneth & Myself.
3 others joined later - ZM, Tricia & Shui Loong.
Can we not go for it anymore?
Met 'auntie' Jean today! Discussed about the Nepal trip and whatnots. whoots. so many things to prepare, buy and settle. But nvm. I shall survive by God's grace. Hopefully. No no. I should have more faith. I will survive!
I'm excited and scared about the trip. Excited cos it'd be a real eye opener for me, knowing how life is like in a 3rd world country. Afraid because I'll be conducting Bible study for 3 out of 4 nights. It will be my first time actually leading. Leading a group of Nepalis somemore!
Ah Neh
bounced.
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Saturday, September 1, 2007
Had out first meeting with the renovation contrator this morning. I thought the designs were ok, as in pretty good. But mum thought otherwise. More meetings to come, till the day we really start our reno I guess.
Didn't do much today. Nanny Mei Xian's back to work again. My nephew and niece come over today. Helped to look after them. wha... tell you arh, the 2 rascals are super difficult to please lah. And like at age 8, my niece has a hp! It's not really suprising 'cos my other nephew, who's only 6, already has a phone.
Kids these days... they are really spoilt. Like why in the world would a 6 or 8 year old kid need a handphone?! First, it's a waste of money. Second, the child is spoilt. Can you imagine, having a hp at 6. What would he/she want when they're older?
Happy Teachers' Day, Teachers! :)
Especially my beloved BVSS teachers. XD
Oh how I miss secondary school.
Friends! Teachers! PE! Trainings! Haunted House!
gee... looking back.
Ah Neh
bounced.
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